im back! trip to Pos Tuel, Gua Musang, Kelantan.

after so long tak update and aku hilang semua pasword bagai..dengan segala ikhtiar i get to write in here back..almost a year plus x update,too many things happened in a year..and somehow orang pun lupa blog2 ni dah..but nevertheless aku nak jugak update few things yang happened to me last few months..first of all a trip to kg org asli pos tuel, gua musang, kelantan. di sini u'll get to appreciate apa yang kau ada dalam dunia ni..things yang u dream so much tapi xboleh dapat but we forget that others yang lagi malang dari kita..

perjalanan ke gua musang took almost 8 hours, and kebetulan masa trip tu was public holiday, wesak day. so highway crowded and kitorg pn xsempat nk stop by rnr even to have lunch pn xdpt..ramai org..arrived kat gua musang, kitorg naik trak masuk deeeeeppp into the jungle lg for almost 2 hours + xpn 4 hours. Lupa.

sampai kat kg tu, we realised we were off from outside world since henpon xdpt line semua..electric supply rely only from generator and akan dihidupkan for few hours only at night to get ready for dinner and kemas2 saja. tapi suasana kat sini u cant get it elsewhere..bunyi air kat jeram early in the morning, sejuk menikam kalbu, the green environment, culture orang asli, and etc. here, anak2 org asli happy sgt everyday..mandi sg, jalan2 dlm hutan..and aku wonder diorg akan stay mcm ni ke even after generations?hopefully tak..

trip ni actually to expose us on how to deal with the community as an expansion agent. so after few obstacles, gua musang ni dipilih. so much experience, mandi sg, gotong royong to prepare food, jalan dari rumah ke rumah nak ajak diorg to join our activities, and most of them are muslim, or baru convert and ABIM is respnsible to jalankan dakwah here in fact our penolong for this trip was one of them. malam2 we'll hang out dkt luar in case lah nmpk harimau ke, babi hutan ke..baru suspen sikit..but unfortunately xde pn..tapi suasana kat sini sangat amat mendamaikan..boleh dengar bunyi jeram, insects, burung2 all day long..

these are few pictures aku curi from dr norsida..byk lagi but these few cukup to picture our whole trip here.

bersyukur dengan apa yang ada, because whenever you feel not enough, there are people who get less than what you have..

Sem 1, 2nd Year

Sumpah lama gila x mengupdate blog. Kadang-kadang malas sebenarnya, or nothing to be said. Hangat-hangat tahi ayam?? Tak kot.. More to mencari ilham utk bercerita is the real reason. Mak cakap, kalau org xnk jgn dipaksa. Nnt orang mrh kita. Lebih baik, duduk diam and observe. Aku bukan nujum, pandai melihat masa depan. Tapi aku rasa aku boleh agak what will happen or what's happening by observing people. Pengaruh movie kot. Tapi so far, apa yang aku predict, it just happened. Macam de ja vu cmtulah.. But this is based on my life's story. Penat wehhhh..Kadang-kadang jadi baik ni memakan diri. Tapi mak pn pesan. Buat baik berpada-pada. Buat jahat jgn sekali. Okay fine bkn mak pesan. Orang tua-tua dulu berpesan. But it's practical. I have my limits. Perlu ke kita judge people by their pasts? Mestilah tak kan. In fact we have no right to judge people. So if you come to me and talk about someone's past, it'll not affect me at all. Tapi aku judge people by what they did to me. Tapi buatlah mcm mana pn, i'll try my best to take it positively, take it from other side of the story. I have my limits. Okay aku pun dah xtau apa aku ckp. It just crossed my mind. Oh btw, lately aku selalu dengar org ckp finger cross lah..geeeezz lahh..kat facebook especially. if only they know the real meaning.

oh yeah!! It's Ramadhan!!!

Pertama sekali saya mengucapkan selamat datang kepada awak. Terima kasih kerana sudi hadir sekali lagi dalam hidup saya. Selama 20 tahun hidup, alhamduillah awak datang bersama infinity kaf ba ra kaf alif ta nun (kalau x salah lah kan).  So alhamdulillah, sempat lagi ramadhaan datang dalam hidup aku ni. Azam kali ni, xmau skip terawih. Tapi nmpknya terpaksa jugak memandangkn aku akan balik kedah esok atau lusa. Bas mestilah malam kan. Boleh jugak kalau nak mntak pak cik bas singgah dulu nk terawih mana2. Kot2 lah boleh. Setiap kali ramadhan datang aku msti pasang niat. Niat nak jadi baik, or maybe lebih baik. Harapnya dimakbulkan niat.

Bila eh first start puasa?? Aku pun dah lupa. Yelah, dulu aku puasa sebab aku nk puasa. Seriously, bukan sebab nk dapat duit raya or upah sebab puasa penuh. Tapi adalah jugak time kecik2 (mind the word kecik2) dulu curik2 minum air masa tgh mandi. Alasannya tertelan. Memang xlah kan. Cara tak menghalalkan matlamat yok!

Apa yang aku igt time kecik2, puasa amatlah azab. Dahaga, lapar, pastu dengki sbb kwn2 aku boleh makan dgn sesuka hati. Tapi xpe, azam kena kuat time tu, barulah boleh berlagak dgn kwn2 sbb puasa penuh. Bila time berbuka msti xtahan sbb tgk iklan kat tv yg sedap. Tambah seksa bila, azan kat kl dah berkumandang, tapi berbuka kat kedah lmbat few minutes. Few minutes of hell..selalunya aku dah ready kat meja mkn.

Sekarang bila dah besar xlah rasa sgt. Raya pn xlah mcm raya time kecik2. Baru puasa sehari kot dah cte psl raya. Tapi aku rasa ni habit yg aku xleh tinggal sejak dulu lg. Menghias rumah dengan pelita bila time dekat2 dgn raya. Tambah2 skrg bila dah dok kt kg. Serius best pasang pelita=) Rasa meriah sgt. Cant wait to get home sweet home. Nak berbuka dgn family. Haih..moto lah ni buat hal. Semangat je aku basuh baju semua kat kolej.

 Anyway, selamat berpuasa utk diri sendiri, and to anyone who drops by here purposely or accidentally. Wishing u all d best dalam beribadat..

End Of Phase One

Hari ni hari last aku kerja di Reject Shop (or supposed to be yesterday). At first seriously, felt like nak habiskan cepat sebulan kerja. Sebulan je kot..To be honest memang penat kerja ni, i mean semua kerja penat. Now i know the real meaning of earning money. Sebelum ni, bukak handphone cari 'sayangmak' tekan button hijau and esoknya duit dah ada.(eventhouh i'm still relying on my parents) Well, this is the real reason why aku kerja. Nak merasa penat mencari duit, rasa susah jadi orang bawah. Rasa susah jadi kuli, sebab bagi aku biar aku rasa susah sekarang so that bila one day aku susah, aku taklah meraba-raba mencari, aku boleh berdiri sendiri.Insyaallah..

Rules in life: 1) Be honest with people around you
                   2) Be kind to people bcoz what you give, you'll get back.
                   3) Make so many friends as possible. Jangan memilih kawan.
                   4) Learn from others.
                   5) Hati mesti baik

And the list goes on. Banyak benda baik dalam dunia ni. It depends on us to either take it positively or negatively. To be honest aku suka fikir positif, biar buruk mana pun. Positive thinking babe! And i just had a beautiful evening with friends from Reject Shop, makan satay, sembang-sembang, taking pictures but unfortunately i didnt bring my camera. But i surely captured them in my heart to be with me forever.=)

End of phase one.
This is just another story in my life. Making friends, learning something new, being in new environment. I take it as another phase in my life. A sweet phase im sure.

p/s: currently making so called things to buy list=)