3rd January

So nothing interesting happen utk hari ni except for hari ni hari 1st masuk kuliah untuk 2nd semester. First impression pun dah x elok. Datang lewat, semua salah contact lens. So from today onwards setiap hari akan bermula dengan tangisan. Seksa jugak nak put on the contact lens. Kata Amar maybe sebab x biasa lagi. Nanti dah biasa mesti x nangis la punya. Haha. Hari ni mengingatkan aku kepada peristiwa about 12 tahun lepas. Sebab 3rd January jgak semua sekolah start termasuklah sekolah rendah.

Bagi aku, 1st day sekolah rendah adalah amat menyeronokkan. Maybe sebab perasaan excited melebihi segalanya kot. Mau x nya. Aku tidur pakai kasut kot the night before. Nak pakai uniform maybe terlebih hyperbola kot. Tapi just to describe the eagerness nak start sekolah. Apa yang aku ingat 1st day sekolah aku cool je. Tak macam budak-budak lain. So immature behaviour. Nak melalak, menangis, merayu parents just to stay with them. Bukan akulah nak buat camtu kan. I was relax, cool and so confidence that everything gonna be alright. So aku pun tengok je lah  budak-budak masa tu seolah-olah aku ni dah lama masuk sekolah. Macam pandang rendah and kehairanan la kan. Biasalah masa budak-budak. Nak berlagak cool and macho. Everything that irritates us about others can lead us to an understanding of ourselves.-Carl Jung

Kelas 3S1-Johan koir =)

Apa yang aku ingat, aku dapatlah kenal few friends yang satu tadika dulu. And diorang pun cool and steady. Budak cool mesti nak geng dengan budak cool kan. Mana boleh geng dengan budak-budak hingusan. And the day went smoothly, nothing happened except for there were still budak-budak menangis merayu meminta simpati. Suddenly aku rasa sangat sakit perut. And seriously cikgu aku x bawak kitorang round2 sekolah macam minggu orientasi camtula. So the choice was either tahan and berkemungkinan boleh melepas bila-bila or pergi tanya cikgu kat mana tandas. And bila berdepan dengan cikgu, soalan yang ditanya adalah "Cikgu, mana bilik guru?"

Haa..mesti cam wonder kan why aku tanya bilik guru instead of tandas. Sebab, aku nak pergi jumpa mak aku. She was one of the teacher. Senanglah sikit, boleh pau tandas cikgu terus. Tak payah geli-geli nak masuk tandas student. Bijak x? Ironinya, aku actually x rasa cool or relax pun masa tu. More to rasa selamat sebab mak ada kat situ all the time. Agak-agak rasa lapar je, cari mak. But aku xlah menggunakan kuasa veto ni untuk kepentingan diri. Telinga aku pun pernah kena piat dengan mak sebab bising dalam kelas kot. It takes courage to grow up and turn out to be who you really are.- e.e. Cummings 

Cepat masa berlalu kan?wish I could turn back the clock. Nak repair mana-mana yang x kena. Tapi tu hakikat kita xleh lawan. Moga masa depan menjanjikan sesuatu untuk aku. Amin. You can have anything you want if you are willing to give up the belief that you can't have it.
-Robert Anthony

Oh!! it's 2011

See..sekejap je dah habis setahun. Pejam celik dah habis setahun. Actually, I kinda dislike 2011, sebab cam x lawa the numbers. Ada pulak kaitan the numbers dengan best x best the year should be. Tapi mcm mana aku suka 2010 pun, 2010 lah paling perit. Orang cakap zaman peralihan. From high school or matriks to uni life. Mine might not be that different. Yelah, locals uni of course lah x susah sangat nak adapt. Kawan-kat kat overseas lg lah susah. Nak adapt dengan new culture, condition kat sana lagi. Bila fikir-fikir balik, 2010 ni macam a year yang determine my life's route. Maybe not 100%, tp part of my life adalah from 2010. Macam-macam berlaku, kalau nk cerita from A-Z mmg x habislah kan. Boleh muntah sebab boring kalau baca pun.

Thanks to Loma, Maputz, and Abop (hope I spell it right) for sharing  your life experiences. Diorang ni senior aku, and tengah dalam fasa pekerjaan. So no doubt their experiences banyak compare dengan aku yang seciput ni. Cerita itu, cerita ini. Alih-alih xsedar dah pagi terus melantak kat Azura. 2010 jugak buat aku realize the way to recognize penipu. Tak susah sangat pun, cakap itu, cakap ini. Alih-alih buatnya benda lain. Kan senang tu. Bahasa kasarnya munafik, tapi bukanlah aku nak menghukum. Manusia kan senang berubah.

Pernah dengar cerita perlumbaan arnab dengan kura-kura? Sebenarnya ada perlumbaan kedua. Kita yang xtau. Menurut al kisah, kura-kura ni sebenarnya boleh jadi lagi laju daripada arnab. Tapi benda yang kura-kura kena buat adalah dengan membuang cengkerang keras kat belakang dia tu. Tapi satu benda yang buat aku respect dengan kura-kura, dia xkan sesekali buang cengkerang tu. Sebab bagi dia, mengekalkan identiti lagi penting. Kalau dia nak menang pun biarlah dengan nama kura-kura. Sebab bila dah buang, itu bukan kura-kura namanya. Kan?nak panggil apa pun xtau.

Ironinya, kura-kura tu adalah kita sendiri. Tak perlu buang identiti sendiri just nak menang 1 perlumbaan. Jadi diri sendiri and berusaha dengan identiti sendiri. Dan xperlu nak amik identiti others just to please people around you. In other words, tak perlu hipokrit. Orang maybe xnampak, tapi sampai bila nak bertahan.

Take your time

Hmmm..something to ponder about..aku sangat admire Tan Sri Syed Al Bukhary and of course Tan Sri Halim Saad himself. Being a really kind hearted person, may Allah bless them and others who are also on the same path with them all. Semoga ramai lagi mampu jadi seperti mereka, and may Allah shows me the way to be like one of them. Amin. Credit goes to Afif Ali for posting this an eye opening video. May it aspires us to succeed and try our hardest to become a person who appreciates others in our own ways.

Kerana tak ramai mampu jadi seperti mereka. And to learn more about them, just google or maybe search on facebook and you'll find more interesting facts about them. How they fall and bounced back. I had the chance to be face to face with this fantastic man, Tan Sri Halim and I'll never forget all the good deeds you've done to me. Thanks again although you might not even know me, I am surely will never forget you. May Allay bless you. Amin..

Tan Sri Halim Saad

p/s:actually ramai lagi yang aku admire. Both of them are part of the people.

Perception is dangerous.

A lot of things happened in the last few fantastic days. At first, my really main agenda of becoming the so called volunteer was to get some pocket money. Itu apa yang Mr. Saiful cakapla kan, but then unfortunately, of course lah volunteer wont get any payment for their jobs. Nama pun volunteer.~duh~ Oh, forgot to mention, I became one of the volunteer in the ABP debate. (Asian British Parliamentary Debate) Penat and serabut are the best two words to describe the whole program. But then honestly speaking, i learnt a lot of things here. A lot!

Maybe this was one of my first activities in UPM. Aku pun x pernah ada any experience in debate. Plus, I dont have that talent or maybe the commitment of becoming one. Tapi, to witness all the debaters from all over asia was damn cool. Some of them spoke like the bullet train tho they dont have one in their country. Seriously I cant even understand a single word or maybe it was just me.Haha..Penat because terpaksa kehulu kehilir and credit goes to Emi Mok and Nubli for letting me borrow their bikes. Serabut because somehow tho they are debaters and of course lah faham English kan. But then they turned out just to ignore or buat-buat xtau when we asked them to be quick and on time. No wonderlah some of them cakap we share the same culture. Being late is normal and bla3..Im not blaming them sebab of courselah aku pun selalu je lambat. Something must be done to improve this attitude kan?

After all, those experiences really do affect me. I learnt the communication skills, (sounds silly kan?but I AM SERIOUS) the hulk joke and the snow joke, how to handle people, and to deal with them. And mcm my entry before, the feeling of getting to know new people(I mean the other volunteers) is awesome dude! I mean from cakap mcm stranger and turn out boleh bersembang mcm bertahun kenal. Awesome kan??Seriously..awesome doe..I dont have even a single word to describe the awesomeness..Okay fine the word is awesomeness.

Oh, aku terlupa nak cakap, maybe a phrase or sentence la kot yang aku rasa best. Perception is dangerous. Renung-renungkan lah okay! And the reason of joining this debate thingy is actually to gain new experiences. Takkan nak spend the whole 4 years in UPM or degree dengan duduk dalam bilik, study and then kerja. Memang tak la kan. So after this if possible I'd like to join all the activities. And next on my list is to be a volunteer in NGO. AMAN Malaysia ke kan..something like that .I dont know..a lot out there, I just dont know the right person who can guide me actually.~ Sigh~